it !!!

with stars in your eyes,
carrying dreams so big,
all that you care is one thing,

pearls of tear flowing through,
you slip off the roof,

it feels right,
it feels good,
it aint in your reach.
still you aim higher,
coz you know
one fine day
it may come by

pearls of tear flowing through,
you stay and it still fits.

here i am

i dont know what to do ...it feels so weird in the head...what to think??
am i being a little over the edge??? i am having too many thoughts and they all are hurting me so much!!! i am quite not clear as to how i should react to anything...what is my purpose??why am i unhappy all the time?
what should i be thinking? where is my path leading me to?
i wanna concentrate more on my studies than anything else...for now..this is my goal..why should i think about something else and create so much confusions into my own brain...
I have an amazing gift of being born in this world and why should i restrict my thinking to a few set of people and small surrounding and why should i give those few people the importance that they dont even need or rather i am spending too much of my time even thinking about them even as i am writing right now....

I have my own goals and dont wanna compromise just for the sake of someone or something...its for heavens sake my life and i should run it...i like it more than any one else...its all my decisions and the way i wanna lead it...
i will read only if i want to ...i will do anything only if it makes me happy ... i aint gonna do anything if it doesnt interest me at all...if anyone likes me in the process then fine else i dont give a bit about them..
for all i care is about my dreams and goals...why should i think if the other person's dreams are happening or not and why should i think that i have to help them,....the reality is nobody needs my help , they all are capable in their own way and happy and they dont need me ,... in fact i am a sort of a disturbance even if i show my concern...why should it matter to them anyway???

I should think practically and do things much more realistically and stop expecting things from others , coz its never gonna happen no matter how hard you try...things will happen the way they are supposed to happen...me trying harder or lesser aint gonna change an iota of what's gonna happen...so its better i try accepting things and people the way they are and not expect anything from anyone and be happy ....
Saying or talking all these things makes me feel closer to the GOD.

learning stuff

its been so many days since i have written my blog...
today there s a reason for my blogging...
I have learnt some stuff in these few days that i need to pour it out somewhere and definitely this is the best place to do so...
I have learned about so many websites and their features and now for the first time in 5 years I actually feel i am a computer literate . I am going through so many websites , accessing so much of content and best part is figuring out which is the best material for myself and reading good stuff.....
One of my courses for the second semester is on Information Networks and audit subject is Web IR and so probably i am going through so much information in the" world wide web"..
Its actually fun to get lost into the world web and search things and download good stuff and especially using the technology is just too amazing and even incredible to think that say even 2 years back i wasnt using the computer so much as I am using it presently...