my world

you caught my hand
taught me how to stand
world looked so grand

u know me so well
never ever yell
take hold of me when i fell

you guide me through obstacle
seems like a miracle
your presence so subtle

your spirit is never too far
my guiding north star
can see you wherever you are

chords:
DCDC
DCDC
GDCD
GDCD
GCCD
DCCG
CGGD
DCCG
DDCC
GGCC
DDCC
GGCD

bheegi billi

bheegi billi aayi

chutki chutki awaaz mein.

chaawi leke gayi

aadhi raat mein

bheegi billi

kya dress pehenke aayi
cheti cheti bhaag gayi room mein

? confused...

i m so confused and lost
i m trying my best
to not be upset

there is nowhere i wanna be
is there no key
i ll be glad to pay the fee

i wanna get rid of this pain
i m going insane
all that i try goes in vain

higher...

i am deciding today that i am gonna do whatever makes me feel happy. No compromise on that one. I aint gonna do anything just because someone wants me to do .. i am gonna be myself whether people like me or not... all i care is about myself coz theres no point thinking about what others think coz in the process i am losing a track of what i am thinking... I want to be myself and i can say that after a long time of not being myself actually is like gassing myself in a death chamber...
If people have to like me its coz of the way i am...if they dont like me , and if i change for those people it doesnt take me anywhere and in the process i am lost myself... so i have decided enuf if enuf...
I know how much smart i am...i know how much intelligent i am, i know how confident i can be...i know now more than ever about myself and the best part is that i am happy and proud to be the way i am and i dont regret doing anything...coz things happen for a reason and i follow through them.
I feel liberated now...i feel i can be whatever i wanna be without thinking who will think about the way i speak or dress or think or walk or eat or work or perform or whatever things that people think about ...what i am trying to say here is i dont think about this anymore...
I am a free bird and if i am restricted , its only by my rules and not by anybody else...i will do a thing only if it makes me happy .... i aint gonna hurt myself anymore...
People have to like me for the way i am...i cant keep changing myself for others.... i am a human too...why dont people understand that i too have feelings and they are important for me...they cant just come and throw things at me and go away....
And yeah...i will do things my way..no pressure from anyone... i know how good or bad i am and thats all that matters .... i aint gonna think about whether someother person thinks what i did is correct or bad... i give nothing to them
if they have to like me...then like me for myself and if they dont like me..to hell with them...they dont deserve me and i wont think about it the other way round.... coz...it doesnt even make sense...
I wont try to be somebody else just to please somebody else... i know my strengths and weaknesses... and i will work on them when i want to...
i will follow whatever policy i want to.. and i wont stand if anyone tries to impose me with theirs....
This is my life and for once i wanna be the central character and not support others thinking they are the central character.
I want to be important to myself and somehow i am confident that i will do just fine..if i dont also...still its fine...coz atleast i am glad that i have myself...
One thing that i learnt is that in the long run the only thing that accompanies you till the end is yourself....
so if u spend a little more time with urself than others and trust urself a little more than u trust on others...u will be so confident to achieve anything in this world... and u will be with people who like u the way u r..coz u havent compromised on anything...if people think thats attitude then so be it...i have no issues with them...coz even they have their personal idea and that need not be in sync with mine..
One more thing...if i am confident then i dream big and i feel that..
when u aim high, then u will reach atleast somewhere just a little lesser than the goal...its like aiming a bulls eye..u are always advised to aim higher than the bulls eye so finally when the bullet reaches the target ...it will be in its correct position.
I am gonna visualise everything that i want to do and believe immensely on those dreams ...i will even be prepared to change my dreams according to the situation ...but i will still continue to believe in the original dream...coz i know if the dream doesnt materialise in the way i dreamt then coz of my belief i am sure that dream will materialise in some other way..but it definitely will materialise and that will be my hope... this may sound too optimistic ...but the whole world runs on the concept of belief..nothing in this world can run without belief and hope....
i guess thats all for today...gn...sd to myself... my pledge today...love myself more so that i can be of some help to others...trust myself more so that i can talk whatever i intend to ....

for a pal

A smile on your face,
A look from your eyes,
A sadness that flies,
A sample of your grace,

your sweet little twinkle,
your naughty cute dimple,
your straight long hair,
your strong fiercy dare,

source of inspiration,
point of admiration,
deep in sensation,
like a cuddly alsation,(hee hee no other word seems to rhyme)

like it when you say "Ole ole cho chweet",
like it when you do that noise,
adore you when you scold me,
admire you when you support me,
respect you when you argue with me,

you are my friend,
with a little spoon of sisterhood,
mixed with a cup full of advices, you become my mentor
and then stirring with your affection, you become my inspiration
and the final recipe gives me a sense of happiness

Stay always the way you are,
be whatever you want to be,
you are what you are and
on the occassion of your birthday
I wish you to continue to be what you are
wish you a very happy birthday
and may god bless you with whatever you will ever need in life.

bro's voice

why should i cry for someone else??? Especially when they are not worth it..
I should try to channelize this time and energy into something more productive....
I should read more books, attend conferences, talks , research meetings, presentations, write papers, read journals, try discussing research things with different people, find people with similar interests and have an engaging conversation, dont limit myself with a set of people, avail all the opportunities , make the best use of the available time, to get to a different league all together, dont worry if someone is not willing to talk, i can always find someone else who might be interested in what i talk.
I should have my own opinions and have a self identity and work towards it. and not care about these sort of petty issues...move on...get to better things in life which are so much more important than this...improve professionally as well as emotionally...being a weaker person is in our hand and we should do everything in our best to change it otherwise.
I should make decisions which are rational, think and decide...and not be dependent on anyone or anything ... physically and emotionally.... being weaker doesnt give me the option to accept things blindly...god has given me with best resources and i should utilise them to bring out the best ..for the human kind.
It is much more worth while to invest time in something better than this and digging my own grave....
I can learn about various companies that i might wanna target..many things. Just be passionate about learning from many dimensions and be open to any ideas or suggestions.

it !!!

with stars in your eyes,
carrying dreams so big,
all that you care is one thing,

pearls of tear flowing through,
you slip off the roof,

it feels right,
it feels good,
it aint in your reach.
still you aim higher,
coz you know
one fine day
it may come by

pearls of tear flowing through,
you stay and it still fits.

here i am

i dont know what to do ...it feels so weird in the head...what to think??
am i being a little over the edge??? i am having too many thoughts and they all are hurting me so much!!! i am quite not clear as to how i should react to anything...what is my purpose??why am i unhappy all the time?
what should i be thinking? where is my path leading me to?
i wanna concentrate more on my studies than anything else...for now..this is my goal..why should i think about something else and create so much confusions into my own brain...
I have an amazing gift of being born in this world and why should i restrict my thinking to a few set of people and small surrounding and why should i give those few people the importance that they dont even need or rather i am spending too much of my time even thinking about them even as i am writing right now....

I have my own goals and dont wanna compromise just for the sake of someone or something...its for heavens sake my life and i should run it...i like it more than any one else...its all my decisions and the way i wanna lead it...
i will read only if i want to ...i will do anything only if it makes me happy ... i aint gonna do anything if it doesnt interest me at all...if anyone likes me in the process then fine else i dont give a bit about them..
for all i care is about my dreams and goals...why should i think if the other person's dreams are happening or not and why should i think that i have to help them,....the reality is nobody needs my help , they all are capable in their own way and happy and they dont need me ,... in fact i am a sort of a disturbance even if i show my concern...why should it matter to them anyway???

I should think practically and do things much more realistically and stop expecting things from others , coz its never gonna happen no matter how hard you try...things will happen the way they are supposed to happen...me trying harder or lesser aint gonna change an iota of what's gonna happen...so its better i try accepting things and people the way they are and not expect anything from anyone and be happy ....
Saying or talking all these things makes me feel closer to the GOD.

learning stuff

its been so many days since i have written my blog...
today there s a reason for my blogging...
I have learnt some stuff in these few days that i need to pour it out somewhere and definitely this is the best place to do so...
I have learned about so many websites and their features and now for the first time in 5 years I actually feel i am a computer literate . I am going through so many websites , accessing so much of content and best part is figuring out which is the best material for myself and reading good stuff.....
One of my courses for the second semester is on Information Networks and audit subject is Web IR and so probably i am going through so much information in the" world wide web"..
Its actually fun to get lost into the world web and search things and download good stuff and especially using the technology is just too amazing and even incredible to think that say even 2 years back i wasnt using the computer so much as I am using it presently...