i am deciding today that i am gonna do whatever makes me feel happy. No compromise on that one. I aint gonna do anything just because someone wants me to do .. i am gonna be myself whether people like me or not... all i care is about myself coz theres no point thinking about what others think coz in the process i am losing a track of what i am thinking... I want to be myself and i can say that after a long time of not being myself actually is like gassing myself in a death chamber...
If people have to like me its coz of the way i am...if they dont like me , and if i change for those people it doesnt take me anywhere and in the process i am lost myself... so i have decided enuf if enuf...
I know how much smart i am...i know how much intelligent i am, i know how confident i can be...i know now more than ever about myself and the best part is that i am happy and proud to be the way i am and i dont regret doing anything...coz things happen for a reason and i follow through them.
I feel liberated now...i feel i can be whatever i wanna be without thinking who will think about the way i speak or dress or think or walk or eat or work or perform or whatever things that people think about ...what i am trying to say here is i dont think about this anymore...
I am a free bird and if i am restricted , its only by my rules and not by anybody else...i will do a thing only if it makes me happy .... i aint gonna hurt myself anymore...
People have to like me for the way i am...i cant keep changing myself for others.... i am a human too...why dont people understand that i too have feelings and they are important for me...they cant just come and throw things at me and go away....
And yeah...i will do things my way..no pressure from anyone... i know how good or bad i am and thats all that matters .... i aint gonna think about whether someother person thinks what i did is correct or bad... i give nothing to them
if they have to like me...then like me for myself and if they dont like me..to hell with them...they dont deserve me and i wont think about it the other way round.... coz...it doesnt even make sense...
I wont try to be somebody else just to please somebody else... i know my strengths and weaknesses... and i will work on them when i want to...
i will follow whatever policy i want to.. and i wont stand if anyone tries to impose me with theirs....
This is my life and for once i wanna be the central character and not support others thinking they are the central character.
I want to be important to myself and somehow i am confident that i will do just fine..if i dont also...still its fine...coz atleast i am glad that i have myself...
One thing that i learnt is that in the long run the only thing that accompanies you till the end is yourself....
so if u spend a little more time with urself than others and trust urself a little more than u trust on others...u will be so confident to achieve anything in this world... and u will be with people who like u the way u r..coz u havent compromised on anything...if people think thats attitude then so be it...i have no issues with them...coz even they have their personal idea and that need not be in sync with mine..
One more thing...if i am confident then i dream big and i feel that..
when u aim high, then u will reach atleast somewhere just a little lesser than the goal...its like aiming a bulls eye..u are always advised to aim higher than the bulls eye so finally when the bullet reaches the target ...it will be in its correct position.
I am gonna visualise everything that i want to do and believe immensely on those dreams ...i will even be prepared to change my dreams according to the situation ...but i will still continue to believe in the original dream...coz i know if the dream doesnt materialise in the way i dreamt then coz of my belief i am sure that dream will materialise in some other way..but it definitely will materialise and that will be my hope... this may sound too optimistic ...but the whole world runs on the concept of belief..nothing in this world can run without belief and hope....
i guess thats all for today...gn...sd to myself... my pledge today...love myself more so that i can be of some help to others...trust myself more so that i can talk whatever i intend to ....
